There's an unsettled feeling inside of me, I can't pin point exactly what it is. A part of me feels like travelling somewhere will silence it for a bit, but I think it's more than that. I feel like I need to do more, to create something, yet the day to day tasks of mothering while growing another human leave me exhausted and unmotivated. I also feel smothered by stuff...Our society is so focused on accumulating stuff, we then have to spend money to store our stuff, to maintain our stuff, etc. It's such a vicious cycle that I feel I constantly get dragged into. I don't want to accumulate stuff, I want to enjoy time with my child and husband. I want experiences not things!
I've been reading tons of blogs lately on families that just sold everything and moved to places like Costa Rica, and if I could I would just drop everything and go for that! What an amazing adventure. But my husband is hesitant to drop our entire lives because I feel unsettled. We do agree on getting rid of our stuff, on needing more travel in our lives and focusing on family time and experiences. But I find it so hard to stay focused on the big picture when the hustle and bustle of the city keeps tempting you with more things that you need to purchase to 'be happy'.
I really need to find direction for my focus, to work on what changes I can make to push our family in a simpler yet happier lifestyle.